Let it Go!

A very valuable lesson learned so long ago, but was reinforced recently. Here I am in one of our newest 'Covid19' line ups. Waiting to pay a bill on time. Interestingly enough, I had arrived at 6:30 am to a lineup about a half a kilometer long, outside of the establishment set to open at 8 am. Everything seemed ok, copasetic. The crowd seemed unusually calm despite the circumstances. Then it rained. And what would occur next reinforced this lesson.

So like I said it rained, and forethemostpart everyone did what they could to shelter. And social distancing of 6' apart went out the perverbial window. Everyone was huddled together to try and avoid the rain. Then the rain abaited and stopped. Persons began to reform the line. I say reform because the line was no longer as it had been before. And when persons started to notice that, that was when the trouble started. . .

The first thing I heard, and I say heard because it was too far for me to see, but I could hear it from there. Was that the line was shorter. Then a loud mouth man started screaming at a woman to go to the back of the line where she was supposed to be. Until another man took her side and the first man eased off. Then there was another woman being berated for being unfairly ahead of the line. So I just chose to keep my place. I marked the man I was behind and followed him like a hawk. He went forward, I went forward. He went back, I went back. I thought to myself of the value of hanging on to this loud mouth man. How he could fight my cause without me lifting a finger, without any stress. Then here came my turn to test my patience. The loud mouth man was telling the security guard in charge who was first, second, third, etc. The guard came to me. He saw that I was on the designated mark, patiently waiting. He said I remember that he was here, then you, then someone else. I said to him, it was him, me, then her and then I said, "But I let it go". Referring to the woman in front of me. I let go of the fact that this woman in the line was now in front of me, when she had come after me.

Line up out to the street. Vibe at a utility bill payment facility.  Social distancing, 6' apart!

Let it go! Let it go is something that is difficult to swallow, difficult to accept when tensions are high, the pressure is on and the stress is mounting. I chose to ignore this action for my benefit. I mean is it really worth it? I am literally living my dream! I have my own apartment in this island paradise. I live alone, besides my cat. I've worked very hard these past 6 years to provide for myself independently. Am I really going to mess that up just because she wants to be dishonest and go ahead of me in the line? I mean really. I'm in no rush to go anywhere, I am not going to be late or miss anything. Waiting 10 or even 15 minutes before paying my bill is not going to cause me any distress.

So you can go ahead, go ahead! Literally, you can go ahead of me and I will be smart, practice my lesson learnt and I will let it go!