What Goes Around Comes Back Around

Be careful of what you give out and even more importantly be mindful of your family history so that you don't repeat it. Running. Running from stress, I ran, I left it behind. I left the destitution, I left the confusion, I left the poverty, I left the shame, the negativity. I left it for a better life, a better way of life, a better lifestyle. I saw the cyclical nature of the world with my own two eyes. I saw it happen and I saw it happen again. And then I would learn my valued lesson, "what goes around comes back around".

I had heard of the saying what goes around comes back around, and I believed it to an extent. But I had never identified it in my life before. Then I saw it come full circle, a full 360 degrees. It landed right in my face and now I had to deal with it for the first time. I had dealt with the situation with someone else, I had handled the situation once again for another, but now, low and behold I would have to deal with it for myself.

I had decisions to make. Decisions that would greatly impact my life forever. The decisions were there, and there was no turning back from them. If I chose wrong, there may not be any going back. No way to rectify it, to make it right or to put it in my favor.
So what did I do? More importantly what did God do? I was not conscious. I really did not know what was going on. I hadn't identified the scenario as yet. I was still reeling, I was getting my bearings. So thankfully God steered the ship while I learned how to swim. I say that I swam and not sailed, cause I was obviously in the deep, but I would have no assistance in learning how to stay above the water. No ship, no raft, not even a floatation device.
But God. God opened my eyes and taught me how to stay above the waves. He taught me to tread water. He taught me to be more buoyant. And while I learned how to swim, and direct my own path, he allowed the wind and the waves to carry me until I reached dry land. And when I had journeyed to dry land is when I believed the film came off of my eyes and I was able to discern the full circle of what goes around comes back around.

You can't see the roots, but you can see it's fruit; the tree.
And you can see signs of the future, the signs of the next generation, the little nests. 

I thanked God for protecting me until I was at the point that I could deal with it, that I could handle it for myself.
What goes around comes back around. I  always thought that term was only meant for bad things. Like if you did bad to someone it would come back to you. But not necessarily so. It could just be an occurance that happened to someone else in your family history. That is why it is important to know your family history and seek it out, be aware and identity negative patterns.
Today I made an important decision to break the path to the cycle. It was a minor decision to some, but to me it was a major one. A decision to deviate from a path that the world would have wanted for me and not what God would have wanted for me. I identified the pattern and was able to discern the occurance which was trying to take root in my life and deviate from it. It came from the left and I went to the right.